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from St. Jude by Smoke and Mirrors

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I ache in my sleep
When I sleep in your wake
I chase while I dream
Until I find your heat
I was once so naïve
I was stronger then before I was jaded
Father Time was such a tease
I used to plan like my future mattered

I'm still not where I want to be
I hope the States will still take me when I find out what I need
Am I still yours while you sleep?
I know you dream but not of me

Everything will be okay
You're not here with me now
But I know I'll see you someday
If things don't get better I'll be with you soon
But I have friends and I have family who swear that I'll improve
If I make this commitment to better myself
Would you smile down from Heaven, cry "God, let me out!"
I need you back on the ground
I need catharsis right now
This winter without you has been the coldest Hell that I've felt

I'm still not where I want to be
I hope the States will still take me when I find out what I need
Am I still yours while you sleep?
I know you dream but not of me

Oh, Saint Jude, watch over me
I'm done looking for myself in the people I meet
Why can't I just be happy?
I've watched the things I used to love fade gray with ennui

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from St. Jude, released August 22, 2015

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Smoke and Mirrors Fort Wayne, Indiana

Defunct Indiana emo outfit.

Harrison
Travis
Dylan
Brandon
Dylan

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